Wishes for 2013

Thanks God for letting me safely passed through the year 2012, 

eventhough bound with ups and downs. 

The most important is God listen to my prayer I had made in 01.01.2012, 

eventhough I had done many mistakes. 

Thank You very muchie... 

The coming year 2013, I have another wishes to pray to God. I am not going to share my wishes here like what I did in 2012. 

That's only between me and You. 

God, please listen to my prayers, 

let my wishes come true in 2013. 

Amen.

值得与否？

在生命中，我们不断的作决定。

作决定最大的难处，

就是当你要舍去一个对你很重要的东西或事情。

有时我在想我做这个决定而放弃了我从小的梦想，

值得吗？偏偏没有人能告诉我。

我已经为我的前途放弃了两次梦想，

我还能有机会实现它吗？

A gift?

I ever thought that having this problem for 10 years is a precious gift from God so that I can have the 'care' and more attention from my family and friends. I also thought that this is a gift from God that can help me pass in my appeal, can save me from the fate of being transferred. But everything now prove that it is not a gift. It is just a troublesome to make my life tougher. In others' eyes, I seem to be normal. But I can surely tell everyone that only the person who suffered from the same problem can feel and understand what is the meaning of 'living a normal life which might not be normal'.

Everyone listen to my problem, have no way to console me. Everyone end up asking me to pray. For me, it is not effective in consoling me even over the pass 10 years. For me, it is just a way to end the topic, to end the chatting. So please, never tell me that again if you don't want to make me hate to talk to you. I'm not deny the presence of God or do not believe in Him. But if this way can comfort me, why do I need to speak it out and feeling that bad?? Just a listener, fine enough to make me feel better. Do not need any suggestion or teach me how to do.