好听&伤人的真心话

如果你发现一个几个月没见的朋友变胖了,
你会直接告诉他/她:"你肥了"吗?
我可以很肯定地告诉你,我不会...

那,若是那个朋友是变瘦或变美/帅了,
你会告诉他/她吗?
我的答案是:会~!

为什么呢?
因为...人嘛,总爱听好听的话啊~
明知道说出那不好听的真话会让他人不开心,
那~为什么还要说呢?

不说并不代表我们虚假..
我们只是在说和不说之间作出选择...
选择说出好听的真心话,
拒绝说出伤人的真话..
那~又有何不对呢?
让大家都开开心心的,不好吗?

Storm Lily

Been busy recently...
lacking time to miss or think about other things...
people, friends, things that had happened before...

*Storm Lily*

this flower actually mean nothing to me..
But, indirectly...Someone using it and had made me think about the things that had happened passed few monthssss...
Many things & Many Friendsss...
all these had changed me a lot...
I will always remember them and keep them as my memories ..
**Miss**

Busy Life

this week started teaching...
students here are very quiet...
a bit not use to it because last time at St. Joe, the students were very noisy and always need to shout on them >.<

My time table is very packed...
1 week = 23 teaching hours...
it is really too much if compare to other college which mostly 12 hours per week for every lecturer...
even my colleagues here, they mostly 17 hours per week only...
How come mine so much?
what no other lecturer know to teach biochem?!
then just let other to take the subject Chemistry from me la~!!bullshit~!!

All the subjects I teach having lab works...
Even though teaching materials were given...
BUT they are really so suck~!!
notes not even complete...
the part of Lab Work, only written the title and objective, but dint even provide the procedure >.<
All I need to do is design the experiment for my students...
These kind of teaching materials?? still consider is 'being provided'?!

Been tired every day after teaching in college...come back to home still need to do preparation for tomorrow...
just like every day also OT only...
still got a lot of admin works not even got time to manage it~
unable to care that much...
time is not allow me to make all the things perfect~

feeling unstable

This morning, I went to Education Department to apply Temporary Teacher...
First I went to Simpang Tiga, but the people there asked me to go Bako Department...
That was very far away and me and my mum dunno the way to go...
luckily a Malay woman was nice enough to bring us go there...
we follow her car at the back until we reached the place...

On the way go to Bako, I only recalled that i forgot to bring my passport size photo..
but that time was too late to get back home..
Thought can try and see may be the people there can nice enough to allow me apply without photo...
But yet, disappointed me...
The lady said I had to follow the rules...
so the only thing I can do is get the application form go back home and complete it...
But seem like the hope to get the offer is not that bright...
cos there are many candidates already summited their application form...T__T

And, right now my heart feeling heavy..
i like teaching but i dun feel want to go for KPLI...
for sure, Temporary teacher job is really unstable...
thought I can get the offer and in the meanwhile I can try to look for other stable job...
but it is really make me feel unsafe...
When can I settle down my career problem??

anyway, 1 thing which can made me feel abit happy is my dream has having a good start tonight...
If you are my friend, then i think you know what is my dream =)
Sorry because I dint mention clearly here because I just wish to tell when i really achieve something...
My dream and my career, both also important and very need to be balanced up..
if my career unstable, I will having problem to achieve my dream life...
Sigh~ I really feeling worry...
Hoping God can help me .. Amen...

My Tasks

Today get to know what are the subjects I will handle in the college...
There are Chemistry I, Biochemistry, Clinical Biochemistry I & II...
All 4 subjects...is that much?
Actually is quite a lot cos all the subjects are long syllabus...
and got quite a number of lab for each of them...

besides this, I have to handle 5 students' thesis, which make me quite shocked cos I have no idea about how to be a supervisor...
But even how la.. I still have to handle them ...

One more task is be a mentor...but this one I haven't get my mentee name list...
How many mentee I need to take care??
Mmm.. Really hope that I dun have any mentee but anyway, this is impossible one ~.~

Very Disappointed Me

TOd@y is my first day at the college...
@t first I very welcome the day I start to work here, even though I got some unsatisfactory with the offer too...
But after today...I really feel very disappointed...
I am just like being cheated by the Principal...

Offer as a Tutor but work both Tutor & Lecturer's worksss...
This is still ok...
But what I heard from the old staffs here, the basic salary would not be increased even after the probation period...
wtf?! First time I heard got such an organization...
They will only give some allowances after we become the permanent staff but the basic salary will still the same even though you work for yearsss...
They are very mean...They are just like want to decrease as much as possible the amount they need to pay for our EPF...
and the allowances which are not stable can be easily removed by the organization as the reason of economic crisis....

Besides that, after become a permanent staff, resignation need to be informed THREE months earlier >.<'''
THREE monthssss~!! so much~!!
normally only ONE month notification ma...
but this organization's rules are so damn~!!
It is just like restricted us to get another offer of job before we decide to leave the organization~
sigh~!! Really wtf wtf wtf wtf~!!!
I thought after I work here my life can be more stable as I dun need to worry about my career again...
but now? everything just disappointed me a lot~